am i normal?

so, i won't create this site of my thoughts to be of dismay and pity for myself. though sometimes i want to be. most days are everyday for me. go to class, come back at the end of the day, fall asleep for an hour, stomach hurt, go to work the next day, do all over again. why do we do these typical things? i want to study with my heart aching for each next day. in the morning i want to wake up with the sunshining into my room without my roomate taping the blinds shut. the first meal i eat i want to feel nourished and ready for the day, not afraid that i'll feel sick. i don't want to had my medication lined up all in a row, so i won't forget how ill i am, and how much they make me forget it. whatever it's not that bad. this is precisely why i have to forget all of these things, and this page will be an instrument. things are getting better everyday, it's just a slow progression.